On November 18, 2021 at 7:15pm, I sat on the hospital bed in our living room with my husband, Nathan sitting between my legs, leaning against me. I told him how much I loved him, how much I treasured our 23-year marriage, what a great husband and father he was, and I would miss him until we were together again in Heaven. He turned his face to my cheek, and with his last breath, he whispered, “I love you.”
My world ended. Every plan, everything I thought the future held, every moment I had dreamed of for our retirement years disappeared. And I came apart.
Losing my husband ripped me open and poured my guts out. It was a wound with no blood, a wound that couldn’t be stitched back together, a raw tearing of my soul that I had no way of fixing. The days, weeks, months, and years that followed took me on a journey I never planned, had no map for, but plenty of baggage.
Oh the baggage! And what I collected along the way became a life I could never have imagined, and I became a ghost of the woman I used to be. But I’m a writer, so writing is what I did. Every thought, every scream, every heart-wrenching bit of pain became 600 pages of life-shattering grief that drowned me, hallowed me out, gutted me, twisted me into someone I didn’t recognize.
I’m also a Christian and God heard about it—my screams, my anguish, my anger, my accusations that He had made a mistake. My prayers were raw and often nothing more than tears and screams that were a way to release the pain in the only way I could. God was patient. And eventually, He gave me a measure of peace. I took the pages I had written over nearly five years and began reading. Agony, pain, insanity—and I began editing, trying to make sense of my own emotions. What was left became Your Ghost, my memoir of the worst time of my life. My hope is maybe someone else experiencing loss will be comforted and helped.
Your Ghost: A Memoir of Love, Loss and the Echoes That Remain is a searing, faith-anchored memoir of love, loss, and the long road back to oneself. When Marie’s husband dies without warning, her world fractures in an instant, leaving her to navigate the brutal, unfiltered landscape of grief. In the quiet of an empty house and the chaos of a shattered heart, she wrestles with God, memory, and the haunting presence of the man she can no longer touch but cannot let go.
Told with unflinching honesty and spiritual depth, Your Ghost traces the intimate, day-by-day unraveling and rebuilding of a woman who refuses to let tragedy define the rest of her life. As she confronts guilt, loneliness, anger, and the strange moments when his nearness feels almost tangible, Marie discovers that grief is not a straight line but a sacred, winding path. What emerges is a story not only of devastation, but of resilience—a testament to enduring love, stubborn hope, and the quiet miracles that carry us forward when we think we cannot take another step.
╰┈➤Book Details
- Genre: Memoir
- Sub-genre: Survival Biographies
- Language:English
- Pages: 105
- Hardcover: 979-8252998060
Your Ghost is available at Amazon.
Marie McGaha is an award-winning writer whose work includes clean historical romances, Christian devotionals, and heartfelt children’s books. A storyteller at her core, she weaves faith, resilience, and gentle humor through every page she writes.
She makes her home in southeast Oklahoma, in the foothills of the Ouachita Mountains, where life is anything but quiet. Her days are shared with four spoiled dogs, a crippled rooster with more attitude than feathers, a noisy guinea who believes it runs the place, a couple of flighty hens, and a watchful roo who keeps an eye on everything that moves. This lively little farm—equal parts sanctuary and circus—provides endless inspiration, companionship, and the kind of grounding only God’s creation can offer.
Whether she’s crafting a tender love story, guiding readers through Scripture, or bringing the Bible to life for children through animal characters, Marie writes with a voice shaped by faith, loss, healing, and the stubborn hope that refuses to let go. Her work reflects the heart of a woman who has walked through fire and come out carrying stories worth telling.
You can also join her for daily devotionals on YouTube at @HeReignsChurch, where she shares encouragement, Scripture, and the steady reminder that hope is still alive. You can contact her by email: church.hereigns@gmail.com.
Marie’s latest book is Your Ghost: A Memoir of Love, Loss and the Echoes That Remain.
Visit her blog at authormariemcgaha.blogspot.com.
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